I’ve been abused all my life

September 12, 2019

Dear Pastor,

I am 20 years old and this is the first time I am writing to you. I am a regular reader of your column.

I have never told anyone my problem or what I am going through, but I really need your help. I hope you will respond.

I never grew up with my mom or dad; they left me with my grandmother at a young age. They helped financially, but that was it; I needed love. I was raped at age 15.

I was sexually molested by a family member and nobody knew. After going through all that, I didn't care what happened to me.

I used to look for love from boys. Every relationship I have been in, I got hurt.

I am hurting physically, emotionally and mentally. I was recently in a relationship for more than three years and my partner abused me so badly that I am still traumatised.

He forced me to have sex with him. I've been through so much; I don't know what to do.

I tried to commit suicide over and over, and I used to cut up my skin. I used to have sex with any boy; I didn't care.

I have been with so many persons. I don't care anymore. I am currently seeking a job.

Please, Pastor, I need your advice. I am so lost and hurt. I don't know what to do.

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Dear Writer

It is evident that you are depressed and you need professional help. I am really sorry to hear that you were raped. It is regrettable that you did not report those who raped you.

You became very promiscuous after being abused repeatedly. You felt worthless and decided that you would just give up.

I am sorry to hear that, but I do understand what you went through.

However, it is not too late to receive help. I will send you the name of a professional and you can go to see her.

I am sure that she will be of great help to you. In the meantime, I will be praying for you. Don't give up.

Pastor

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